guitar without strings

farewell

2010-04-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

this is my last post on this blog, so be grateful

i'm gonna make my story to a tale for you

i can't make it as a poem, so here it is

FAREWELL

once upon a time, there was 3 kingdoms

first kingdom, led by a kind yet humble king, yves

second kingdom, led by a smart and beautiful queen, ann

and the last kingdom, led by an evil king, otto

at first, yves fall in love with ann, but ann rejected

ann loves someone else, which is otto

but otto is an evil being, he knows that yves loves ann

so he tricked ann to attack yves

at first ann showed up in yves kingdom gates

yves, shocked with happiness, call the guards to open the gate

but there was an ambush, coming from an opened gates

so ann's kingdom wreck the whole town, leaving yves wounded and broke

otto feel satisfied, and take ann inside his kingdom

but not before long till otto feels bored

suddenly he saw yves building his empire from dust to gold

yet he tries to trick ann again

ann, full of depression, comes to yves kingdom

she was told by the king, otto

"if you're the queen i was looking for, you must prove it to me

bring me yves heart, and i'll marry you"

so ann come to yves's kingdom, full of depression

so he kneel before yves, begging for mercy

she pured all her might to make a lie

to convince yves to make an opening for attack

yves is a humble king, so he forgive ann. he gives a second chance

and invite ann to his kingdom, to his throne

but suddenly, ann stabbed him from the back

ann takes his heart away, and give him to his lord, otto

otto feels satisfied again, yet if won't last long

he unites the kingdoms within his hand

then he fell in love with another kingdom's princess

and dumped ann for good

ann, confused, walking through the woods of hatred

there she founds yves's body, paralyzed

yves's not dead, he's barely breathing

there was only one thought on ann mind, to impress otto again

then she founds an axe, left by some woodchuck

she wields the axe high above her head

and get ready to chop the king's head

but he saw yves face, covered by blood and tears

the end of the story, i don't know. coz i'm still living that story

but i'll make sure this story has an ending

maybe in a week, a month, a year, nobody knows

but if you have a good idea for ending let me know

until then, goodbye for now

thanks for reading or see this blog

i'm going on a trip, so this is goodbye

be grateful, and farewell :)

crimson day

2010-01-07T08:52:00.000-08:00

"I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin', cause I let you
Do what you do, down on me"

Cryin' - Aerosmith

that's hurts when you know she's your cinderella and you're not prince charming

it's a pain in the heart when you know someone stabbed her from the back

that's a shame that you know about it and can't do anything about it

i'm sure you'll be broken when you know, she sees you as nothing

yeah it's been a while since i feel this feelings

this is not a poem or something i wrote about everyday

this is a story about man, that think he's important

but somehow realized that he's nothing

there's a time that a man loved his lover very much

but her lover just using him as a substitution

he know it, but he can't do anything about it

he feels pain inside, but he can't help falling in love

and when the girl falls to agony by her lover, she's broken inside

the man knows that, and try to comfort her

all he can do is talk talk and talk his mind

talk all in his head, all the useless thing came up he's mind

he knows another girl care for him, feel his pain

even if he know that, he's persistent

she's been reaching to his heart, make it good

built a shelter of trust inside his burning heart

the man knows that, he knows all about it

but his eyes blinded by fire of love

he doesn't see everyone besides that girl

and let the possible got away, take the impossible

he's possessed, he hear nothing else

except moan and cries all over the place

he kneel down by his feet, and pray

so God give him strength to survive

this story ain't over, coz he's still living on it'

and in anytime at a moment, he'll end it

on the crimson day he'll pour everything in his head

even knowing that he'll failed, he's just plain stubborn

well i'm saving this ending till next event

just thinking, when the day has come, bloody red crimson day

as the red wine pouring to his cup

his tears become blood, paint his coffin

Kamis, 2010 January 07

cry your heart out

2009-12-28T10:20:00.000-08:00

"Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry"

Don't Cry - Guns n Roses

i feel your heart burned out

there's something in your eyes

tell me inside you're broken

even if you told it's fine

i know you wanna cry sometimes

but sometimes sure it's hard

than take your hand beside me

and please don't let go

hold your tears today

wait for me, i'm coming

coz i'll take the tears instead

and we'll share the pain together

tell me that you're not fine

tell me honestly, i'll be there

tell me you wan't to cry

coz i'll be the shoulder you can lean on

just hold your arms in your heart

cry your heart out

i'll be there as soon as i can

to make sure you're not broken

and let this rain come pour to your eyes

your body, and your spirit

so they can extinguish your flames inside

and let me approach your heart

cry your heart out

Selasa, 2009 Desember 29

you're not lost

2009-12-23T09:18:00.000-08:00

"They say that no man is an island,
And good things come to those who wait,
But the things I hear are there just to remind me,
Every dog will have his day."

Santa Fe - Bon Jovi

yeah you know this world is hot and cold

fiery but wet, comfort as hell

you can say that not everybody won, nor everybody lost

but there's no such thing as lost everything

for those who won, your story far from over

you must keep your win until someone put an end of it

keep that until you are the absolute winner

but now, take your triumph and proud of it

take your prize home and look at it

look how much you fight for it, cried and hurt

you take alot of train and makes it way down here

we proud of you, my friend

but to you whose lost, you're not losing anything

you learn from this loss, and grow up

world's not always sweet, it's bitter after all

but the best medicine is the bitter ones

you take your wound, mend by itself

you learn more, grow even higher

you take your step, train and learn

until you're ready to be the winner

either of you, take your step

move on, don't look behind

your world is yours to conquer

and there's always people pushing you forward

you're not lost

Rabu, 2009 Desember 23

this feelings

2009-12-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

"I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show."

Can't Fight This Feelings - REO Speedwagon

i would never thought that world will be this friendly

since i found you, i knew world is so beautiful

you take my world even higher and higher

you brighten my eyes, show me the way

and i just want to sit beside you and talk with you

to saw your faces and hear your voices

to dream about you everyday and night

just to feel you inside my heart

i want to take you to your adventure

to spread your voices over the world

so this whole world can hear your voices

and remember your voices in their ears

so please came in here, stay with me

take your time, look around us

what makes you so important to me

how your presence makes me alive

i found you now, so don't say goodbye

i swear i will be here forever

just to feel this world even longer

with you within my arms

coz i love you now, i need you now

and i can't fight this feelings anymore

you come here and restore my senses

makes me feel this world a little bit longer

this feelings

Rabu, 2009 December 23

build it right

2009-12-20T08:35:00.000-08:00

"..."

Building the Church - Steve Vai

come on hear the march

let's stomp, wake the earth

make it fast, we're on road

coz we're building it right here

kill the laziness, take over yourself

don't waste your time n vain

land off the foundation, marking that

we're building there right now

foundation of faith, wall from words

tiles of innovation, roof of believes

fences made by strong will

and our prayers as the choir

don't fear the evil that threaten us

even if they rain on us a thousand of boulders

our building is indestructable, immovable

lies within our heart, it stands tall

maybe the old building's gone but the spirit lives

don't mind the crack or the holes

make it over by your faith, take your stands

build it right there, right inside your heart

build it right

Minggu, 2009 Desember 20

alive

2009-12-19T08:48:00.000-08:00

"Hold me now

I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down"

One Last Breath - Creed

it's like ten feet off the ground

i saw you from the gorge

doing what you like, anything you need

saw you makes me smile

in the other side, i saw her standing there

smiling at me, laughing at me

saw her paying attention to me

it just makes me happy

then i saw your pretty face again

you're not even recognize

or just saw here a little bit

you're neglecting me there

girl oh girl, what makes your eyes turn blind

why don't you look at me from afar

coz love don't come, they grow

sometimes it been hard keeping it alive

girl, don't make me choose

coz when i'm thinking about you and her

i saw your light blightened my eyes

but her light even brighter from yours

coz she's recoznized my existence

keeping me alive, makes me live

and you're not even there

when i'm looking at you from afar

now i choose her, my funny friend

don't disappoint me, just look at me

coz i can see you, from the light from your eyes

your laugh, keeps me alive

alive

Minggu, 2009 Desember 20

aboard

2009-12-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

"Can you take me high enough
To fly me over yesterday
Can you take me high enough
It's never over
Yesterday's just a memory"
High Enough - Damn Yankees

if i have to choose a person in this live
to be taken somewhere, in an adventure
you, i'll take you, coz you're the one
who teach me how to dream and how to live

and you lit this fire somehow
this feelings become bigger and bigger
this body can't contain more of this feelings
just as deep as i think about you

could i take your hand
and hold it within my arms
can i feel your heart around me
burning inside this feelings

coz i'll take you somewhere
over the endless sea
under the deep blue sky
and take you to the big, big adventure

i'll take you where the blind will see
when the deaf could hear
and the mute can say
coz words isn't needed anymore

and my feelings will finally grow over
as wide as the countless mountains
as deep as the blue ocean
across the universe, living endlessly

aboard
Senin, 2009 Desember 14

dreaming

2009-12-13T05:51:00.000-08:00

"I know that you belong to me every night
You suddenly appear in my eyes
It happens when I sleep
It isn't right
What I do in my dreams with you"

In My Dream With You - Steve Vai

it's only you and me, in this room

without anybody, we could talk all night

saw your faces, hear your voices

we talk a lot about ourselves

we talk about how fun your life is

full of experience, happy and sad

hear how much you like to adventure

and promising i would take you everywhere you want

we talk about how i met you

how my mouth chapped just by seeing you

and how hard i try to be with you

and how my effort pays me somehow

we talk about our future

what can we do, if we're apart

we promise each other that night

how far we're apart, we'll be waiting for each other

and as the night goes deeper

with your faces all around my head

i encouraged myself to show you my feelings

until someone wakes me up

i realize it was a dream

a little, but nice, very nice dream

i would give you anything, to make it happen

i would love to, but i'm very, very shy

dreaming

Minggu, 2009 Desember 13

nation of reality

2009-12-13T05:39:00.000-08:00

"Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self esteem along the way"
Fake It - Seether

welcome to the beach of sadness

where your tears is your only friend

when your smile didn't exist anymore

and people's dancing on your loneliness

welcome to the jungle of misunderstood

where your mouth chapped in fear

when you fall to depths of sorrow

and living isn't a fun thing anymore

welcome to the cliff of hypocrite

where a thousand tears holds no sadness

when your smile is your only weapon

come, and enjoy the thrill

welcome to the city of lies

where you can't trust anybody

and everybody can't trust you

welcome, feel the comfort

welcome to the nation of reality

where your tears reflects your weakness

and fairy tale isn't exist anymore

with no signs of living, happiness inside

nation of reality

Minggu, 2009 Desember 13

return!

2009-12-13T05:38:00.000-08:00

this is my return from a longggg longg vacuum... maybe i've got this feeling again, enjoy now, will you? hahaha... coz now it's improved, i give a little piece of a song behind that poem, just listen at it... recommended by ME... awkawkaw

apologize

2009-04-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

mood : sad, dissapointed to myself
background : when you're making big mistake, and regret it
message : "i'm sorry, really, really sorry. the fault is all mine"
quote : “Being sorry is the highest act of selfishness, seeing value only after discarding it.” - Doug Horton

APOLOGIZE

a hundred sorry words coming from my mouth
can't cured your bruised heart from pain
even i can't handle the pain
from a simple humiliation, with a deep meanings

a thousand apologizes coming from my tears
can't changed anything at all
from the betrayed, lied feelings
by a trusted companions, can't tell the pain

i'm sorry my friend
for all the things i've done
i betray our friendship, makes it a tool
to protect myself, for my own goods

i apologize to you my friend
coz i makes you dissapointed
by the things i done, the words i say
even the action i make, the fault is all mine

please forgive me my friend
i'm just a fool, who doesn't know anything
except making beautiful words, without an action
just a bullshit without meanings

i don't care about anything at all
what your feelings to me or my feelings to you
but, if i had one chance, just one more chance
i want we became friend again, just like old times

but if you think i'm not worth it
to have a second chance, i can't complain
i'm just a hypocrite, who doesn't appreciate anyone
if you do not want to see me again, i would understand.

apologize
Selasa, 2009 April 21

happy birthday

2009-04-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

mood : happy
background : today is your friend's birthday
message : "happy birthday, wish you all the best"
quote : “Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.” - Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta (Buddha)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

my friend, today is your birthday
i wish god bless you this day
you give me a present of a little friendship
and i'm proud of you today

i wish you peace and goodwill
i wish you love and joy
i wish you're better than your heart desire
and your smile is growing more

i know, you know, we know
that you are growing up, matured
and that's okay, as long you're not changing
and you're not growing old

on the day you brought to the world
the angels danced together, happily sing
they bring joy to the world, smile to the earth
that you were born to fill world in smile

i know, this rhymes is nothing to compare
with your parent's feelings
you brother and sister happiness
when you're born, you're gift from heaven

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count
what counts is the life in your years
coz maybe to the world you're just one person
but to one person, you're the world

happy birthday
Senin, 2009 April 20

reflection

2009-04-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

mood : depressed
background : when you think you're nothing at all. no one respect
message : "i'm sorry, for all what i've done."
quote : “One of the first signs of being depressed is that you lose interest in things. That's why I think it is important to stay passionate.” - Nicolas Cage

REFLECTION

i'm walking alone in this lonely street, no one could see me
through the loneliness and cold night, by my own feet
i see my road crushed in front of my eyes
now i'm on the crossroad, confused, and waiting

just remember your presence last day, when the light seems too bright
seeing you left away, no words coming out from my mouth
it seems my mouth are chapped, and my voice sealed
saying goodbye, just making it more painful

now i've got choices, hard choices
leave you, go to the other side, living with emptiness inside
or carry you out, and let myself crushed by my feelings
all this choices makes me dizzy, confused, staring at the sky

seeing a lot of stars cover the whole black sky
waking up my memories of you, everynight and everyday
the sun rises, i can't wait to see you, afternoon comes, i'm happy to meet you
the sun goes down, i'm thinking about you, the night comes, i pray for you

i don't know what, i'm confused, i'm thinking
no matter how hard i do, i'm trying my best to get you
there's a limitation, where human can't reach
loving you is my right, but having you is my limitation

now i know, i realized, love can't guaranteed happiness
friendship and love, is a very different things
bond of love, can shattered in one big mistake
but bond of friendship, grow with each mistakes happens

the meaning of the love itself, is not meant to have each other
seeing each other's happiness, is the essence of love
seeing your pure happiness, can't compared with everything
now i'll pray for your happiness, with or without me

reflection
Senin, 2009 April 13

a letter to friend

2009-04-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

mood : flat
background : when you know your friends are getting closer
message : "thank you. i appreciate it."
quote : “If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.” - Winnie the Pooh

A LETTER TO FRIEND

unlike the shore and the waves around them
we're one, sharing and complete each other
like a coral reef in the ocean
me and you, we're as firm as a rock

we complete each other like a song
you're the music and i'm the lyric
you're the vocal and i'm the instrument
you're the words and i'm the melodies

when we're together, no one can break us
the longest street will be conquered
the mightiest waves will be tamed
all thanks to you, my friend

as time passed by, stronger we get
stronger we get, as fiercer obstacles in front of us
but we believe, we trust each other
our bond of friendship, is not to be underestimated of

life's tough, but you make it easy, my friend
never change, my friend, coz it's what you hope on me
i know, you're the gift i had from heaven
you're easy to remember, hard to left, and impossible to forget

a letter to friend
Sabtu, 2009 April 04

too much love will kill you

2009-04-20T23:36:00.000-07:00

mood : enraged
background : when you know, your friend has been hurted, and you can't do anything at all
message : "it's not worth it. living under other people's shadow"
quote : “Worthless people live only to eat and drink; people of worth eat and drink only to live.” - Socrates

TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL YOU

you know my friend, you're not the one to blame
you're just a victim, from a traitorous love
but i know, what you know as love itself
it's easy to remember, but too hard too forget

but it's not very easy too say it to you:
you're not the old you, something is not same
and it's not too easy to say:
my feelings is not as much as before

just telling you, my friend
if that man loves you so much
and loving you devoutly, so sincere
he'll never, ever say that to you, even for once

coz pure love is act, not just in the mouth
love is big, universal, honest, and sincere
love needs loyalty, patience, and respect
happiness inside, when love touches your soul

it's just not worth it, spending your life in vain
living on other people's shadows
every people must enjoy their life at it fullest
coz love is not to be waited, it's to be searched

you just don't realize it yet
you're beautiful, many people can tell
you're smart, the fact say it all
you must thankful for all you have, my friend

coz love means letting someone go, set them free
if they're back, they're yours forever
if they're not, they never will
if you keep waiting for them, you just waste your time

you don't have to worry, my friend
love is unpredictable, easy come, easy go
but love searching for an open heart
open your heart, and let love come into your soul

too much love will kill you
Jumat, 2009 April 03

live in a confusion day 6

2009-04-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

but now i'm thinking, why we always complaining?
many peoples, many mistakes, many problems
we acted like we're the poorest in the whole world
but when you see the others, your pain is nothing to compare

look with the other people's eyes
look at the problems with many views of look
besides, you're not alone
you have friends to share and complete each other

so i tell you, who's troubled with your problem
simple cry doesn't change anything, only act will change
you're not alone, someday you'll realize
that the path you choose, is the best choice you've ever made

"deep in the night, i'm not sleeping, i'm thinking. and i know the answer. but not all. i don't know is this an answer, or an excuse. but i know, all what i choose, is the best choice, coz if i'm not making those choice, i will not be like this. the live in is over, but the memory last forever."

live in a confusion day 5

2009-04-20T23:25:00.000-07:00

here in this place, i stand, i confused
with all of this crazy thing, crazy world
sometime when i'm thinking, i'm questioning
why people always need to choice?

why can't we live in a straight way?
not in the life full of crossroads and turning aways
why can't we forget anything what we want to forget?
in my heart i questioning, no one could hear

maybe i found a little answer
life's a choice coz that what makes life worth and beautiful
we can't forget that coz our memory is the proof of other's existence
it is, but think again, is it? i don't know

"in this last night, i can't sleep. i keep staring at the empty space in the ceiling of the house, waiting for the night makes me sleep. makes me thinking, why and why. what's going on, the question keeps whispering in my head, makes me suffer."

live in a confusion day 4

2009-04-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

but this day i realize
loving someone is letting her free
let her choose the best for her
even it heard so lame, that's the truth

maybe i sound like a loser, but that's what i am
i'm not a winner, just a sore loser
i can only pray for your happiness from here
wish you luck on your life

goodbye my lover, goodbye my heart
it's an honor, you let me keep you in my heart
i wish i meet you earlier, so i can love you longer
when we meet again, i hope we become a real close friend, not more, and not less

"i barely made my choice, a hard choice to make, but it must be done, i choose to let her go, no matters what peole says. coz in the end, freedom is the essence of love. goodbye, adios, voyos con dios."

live in a confusion day 3

2009-04-20T23:00:00.000-07:00

as the rain poured to the earth
my tears fall down to my face
coz when i'm looking back, i realize
there's no turning back, no way out

i see you there, in front of me
it feels so far, although you're so near
i know, i understand, i realize
you can't be mine, you're so far to reach

the rain seems to be harder
the road feels so far away
my feet feels so numb, i can't even feel anything
i'm falling, covered by pains, raindrops, and tears

oh, give my heart a strength
to end this living nightmare
if i could be her's, please open the way
if i shouldn't be her's, i don't know what to do

"in the end of the road, i see you there, ignored myself. now the steps are gething higher, my feet feels so numb, and i slipped. blood and pain covered my body. i'm confused, please show me the way. if it's any."

live in a confusion day 2

2009-04-20T22:59:00.000-07:00

simple mind holds not enough feels
simple feels guide me home to you
coz in this wild, crazy world
just love can't make you survive the world

"i'm thinking about you, in this starry night, what you're doing out there, and if i'm in your mind right now."

live in a confusion day 1

2009-04-20T22:56:00.000-07:00

silend sound of the waves
awoken me from my sleep
gentle wind breeze through my head
make me wonder what you're doing out there

"i'm looking out the window, staring into the space, darkness prevail, i'm just lonely and wish you were here."

confession in a confusion

2009-04-20T22:51:00.000-07:00

mood : confused
background : when you want to confess your feeling, but not brave enough to say it
message : "i hope you know my feelings, it doesn't matter you like it or not."
quote : “Deep in my heart I'm concealing things that I'm longing to say. Scared to confess what I'm feeling - frightened you'll slip away.” - Madonna

CONFESSION IN A CONFUSION

i miss you like a rainbow without a colour
i miss you like a night without a moon
i miss you like a woman without a smile
i miss you like a man without a stand

i miss you, even when the sky so bright, something missing
my smile faded, sadness remains calm
silently, slowly, killing myself when i'm asleep
would you like to come, and see me even for a moment?

i need you like a music without a sound
i need you like a dance without a rhythm
i need you like a portrait without an object
i need you like a man, waiting to you to come

i need you, my heart holds up a thousand words
my mouth chapped, my heart bursted
my feelings soared like a waves, missing your voice
would you like to come in, and mend where it's broken?

i write these things to you, coz i can't speak to you
when i write these things out, my heart cried
when you see this letter, could you know my feelings to you?
coz it's for you, sincerely yours, missing part of myself

confession in a confusion
Sabtu, 2009 Maret 21

friend

2009-04-20T22:46:00.000-07:00

mood : rising
background : when you realize that someone there is caring for you
message : "your smile is all that i need"
quote : “To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.” - Brandi Snyder

FRIEND

listen to me well, maybe you'll realize
how much friendship does to hold your stand
coz you've been held by a chain of trust
keeping you far away from the sorrow gorge

sometime you're sad, your feet feels so heavy
you try to walk, you drop on your knees
crying, sadness remains on your heart
everybody's gone, and you're alone

but when you open your eyes, what do you see?
you saw their faces in front of your eyes
even when they're not around, you feel their presence
keeping you awake, hold you not to faint

you hear their voice, it sounds so encouragious
waking you up from your unconsciousness
even it looks not too clear, you know who's it
it's your friends, somebody you trust and loyal to

even if your feet feels so heavy, you try to crawl
if your hands feel numb, you kneel with your knee
their hands hold you up, standing you up
coz that's what friends use for, stand you up when you can't

that is you, my friend, what i like from you
your smile is my smile, my heart cried when you cried
your happiness is my happiness, whatever it is
it's really an honor, to have a friend like you

friend
Sabtu, 2009 Maret 14

your smile

2009-04-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

mood : blooming
background : when you have her smiled. and thank god you saw it
message : "your smile is all that i need"
quote : “Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.” - Mother Teresa of Calcutta

YOUR SMILE

i know, you know, this world is not a friendly world
grief and sorrow, all over the edge of the city
well, we know, it doesn't matter what lies in front of us
but i know, as long i have you, everything will be ok

you know, your smile is all that i have
when i'm lost in this evil world
when my sadness fills my heart
whenever i go away, i'll carry it in my heart

every step we take is a whole new adventure
to explore a whole new world in this big, big world
me and you, you and me, share like a family
another step goes in, no one left behind

i know, your smile is all that i need
like a map to open world in my adventures
like a ship to conquer the oceans
like a compass when i'm lost

don't ever go away, my comrade, my love, my partner
coz i need you, when the darkness engulf my heart
even when the light too bright, blinded my eyes
obstacles don't meant anything, when i see your smile

we know, your smile is all that matters
no matter whenever i go, anywhere, anytime
coz when the rain and clouds covering my road
your smile opened the way, lead me home

your smile
Jumat, 2009 Maret 13

will i

2009-04-20T22:38:00.000-07:00

mood : dissapointed
background : when you realize, it's better without you than with you
message : "with or without me"
quote : “I thank everyone that has caused me to suffer, without you I would have no reason to express myself.” - anonym

WILL I

oh, the waves of time
seems to wash away all the differences between us
and, oh, the clouds of time
raining on our face, make us realize

will we stay together?
will we goes forever?
coz another winter come
take away all ours, kept us inside

whenever when i see your smile
i'm just thinking what can i do without you
would i be okay?
would i stay strong?

and i realize, without you
i can make it by myself, no need to crawl around
i won't waste my life away
to take back what was taken away

coz when i would waste my life in vain
there's something make me thinking
will i stay strong? will i go on?
i'll make it, with or without you

will i
Rabu, 2009 Maret 11

last day

2009-04-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

mood : confused
background : when you're thinking, if today was your last day
message : "whatcha gonna do, if today was your last day"
quote : “Execute every act of life as though it were thy last” - Marcus Aurelius

LAST DAY

one night, i see a dream in darkness
there's four window on the side of the darkness
and a voice calling me, whispering:
"if today was your last day, what are you gonna do?"

i see on the first window of light, i see starved people
old man, young man, dies of starvation
they has no money, they has no jobs
if today was my last day, will i donate every money i had?

on the second window, i see many of my old friends
some still remain, some has forgotten
i can see how i abandon my old friend and move to the new one
if today was my last day, will i find them, and apologize to them?

on the third window, i see all my enemies
i can look through their eyes, some of them hating me
some of them felt sorry, but can't apologize to me
if today was my last day, will i forgive my enemies?

on the fourth and last window, i see my friends, my family, and my loved ones
i see their smile, their cry, their faces
i can't forget her smile anywhere, anytime, anyplace
if today was my last day, can i say i love them, and goodbye?

when the last window closed, i'm staring at the darkness
seeing what can i do when that day comes
and the voice whisper again, says:
"live each moment like your last. don't waste it in vain."

when that voice keep descreasing, i see a blinding light
then i'm woken up, and thinking
if today was my last day, and tomorrow was too late
could i say goodbye to my yesterday?

last day
Selasa, 2009 Februari 24

seize the day

2009-04-20T20:12:00.000-07:00

mood : regretful
background : when you know what you've done is meaningless at all
message : "i'm dissapointed, yet i'm still trying"
quote : “The only thing you live to regret are the risks you didn't take” - anonym

SEIZE THE DAY

you know, what happens now is not the same as it is before
everything you do, everyone you know, changed in a blink
everyday, everytime, we see changes everywhere
but you don't know, you've already changed

you know time is a complicated form of life
time can changes your heart
time can bend your knees
we can't runaway from time's hands

you know, i have something to tell you
but when i see you, it seems my mouth is shutted
when i hear your voice, i can forget every words
but i know, it's just another escaping from reality

just know, our time is running out
waiting for some courage, it's just too long enough
when we're awake, another obstacles coming
and another regret come

you know, i wasted my time in vain
waiting for some courage from someone
but i'm just realized, all the thing i've planned
just another way to escape

i'm just telling you, my friends
seize the day, take all opportunities
if we still wasting our chances
when we realize, it's just too late, only regret remains

seize the day
Senin, 2009 Maret 02

believe

2009-04-20T20:05:00.000-07:00

mood : happy
background : when you believe that pure love never let you down
message : "i give the key of my heart in your hand, my love."
quote : “When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.” - Oprah Winfrey

BELIEVE

i see light in deep, deep darkness
and an angel descend from the sky
but with no wings, just warm, peace feeling inside my soul
you, are the gift from heaven

i'm just a mere human being
in a big, big world, with a small, small chance
to hold you close in my arms
and let me to take care of you, for the last of my life

when your world collide in your heart
and you got nothing to hang on
stand alone, is not the only choice
you don't need to whisper, i'm beside you

when my pain takes me to the knees
and when my heart writches in pain
and when my eyes blinded in darkness
i don't need to search, you're already here with me

i believe in you, my angel
even through the tears and the laughter
even though we be apart, on the opposite side of the world
just follow my heart, and it will guide me to you

coz loving someone, is having each other
keeping each other dreams, complete each other
just take me to your heart, and i'll try to fill it
with joy and happiness that will never die

believe
Senin, 2009 Februari 16

game of life

2009-04-20T19:48:00.000-07:00

mood : merry
background : when you realize what is the "real" life
message : "no matter how hard the life, just play it up!"
quote : “You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.” - Albert Einstein

GAME OF LIFE

life's like a football game
you must try to tackle your opponent
defend yourselves from their attack
and score points when you have the chances

life's like a chess game
when your king's dead, you can't continue the game
one side loses, one sides wins
there's only black or white, things like grey doesn't exists

life's like a card game
there's a lot of chances to loses, but little chances to win big
there's no such thing as a useless card, any card is useful
sometime, we try to score high, or threaten our enemy

life's like a game, yes it is
but life's not a game to play, but must be taken cared of
life's can give a lot of fun, or a lot of pain
life's a heaven or hell, depends on the way we see through it

when you heard this poem my friends,
proof to the world, that your life's not just passing by
live your life, take all chances
make your life worth as it seems to be

game of life
Jumat, 2009 Februari 13

death

2009-04-20T19:42:00.000-07:00

mood : missing
background : when you lose your loved one
message : "you must be strong, my friend."
quote : “Every man dies - Not every man really lives.” - William Ross Wallace

DEATH

we used to heard talks about death
death is a silent thief that stole life from us when we're asleep
death is an eternal sleep
do we know what death really is?

death is when your loved ones have forever gone away
but we know, when someone we love death
they didn't gone away forever
if we remember them, they live inside our heart

death is a feeling of permanent sadness and pain
when our heart hurts, we can't do anything about it
but someone who know us, especially we loved
can help descrease the pain, mend a broken heart

death is a sharp pain to the heart
death is when your loved ones must depart
death is a dreamless sleep
death knows no achievements, no feeling

we know the anticipation of death is worse than the death itself
but if death meant just leaving the stage long enough
gives us time to change costume and come back as a new character
would you slow down? or speed up?

maybe i don't know anything about death or losing someone we loved
but life must go on, my friend
dust to dust, ashes to ashes
but the our memory of them, will live forever

you must have heard about this, i'm just making it clear
"if the people we love are stolen from us
the only way to have them live on is to never stop loving them
buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever."

death
Minggu, 2009 Februari 08

loss

2009-04-20T19:36:00.000-07:00

mood : lonely
background : when the night comes and you remember your loving one.
message : "nice words is not enough."
quote : “Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you.” - anonym

LOSS

to love o mine,
i know any beautiful words aren't beauty enough

to impress or make you smile
coz now, you've gone

i know all these words come from my mouth
it's just too late my dear

we having a lotta time together
from monday to sunday, goes back to monday

we overcome some difficulties
what we can't do when we're alone

i'm sorry, o my little angel
i cant express my love when you're beside me

now you've gone away
i'm the one who should be blamed

loss is when your loved ones must depart
losing is a sharp pain to the heart

lose is a feeling of permanent sadness and pain
lost is when your loved ones have forever gone away

and if there's no one besides you
when your soul feel so alone and lonely

if you feel so empty insides
when you cant stand alone in dark

if you're eyes blinded with light
when your ear are full of complains

if your heart can't holds so much pain
and if your eyes filled with tears

just call me out, i will hear you now
and i'll carry you out, follow you into the light

loss
Sabtu, 2009 Februari 07

fix me, i'm broken

2009-04-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

mood : broken
background : when you feel like your dream shattered in pieces
message : "there's always someone knows you and tries to fix you."
quote : “Words and hearts should be handled with care for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.” - anonym

FIX ME, I'M BROKEN

sometime
i want you like i be like what i want you to be
and heal myself when i'm wounded
i can't force you to be like that

i wish i can fix you
and make you like how i want you
and wishing you can fix me
coz i'm the one that broken

i wish i can heal you
and mend where you are broken
and wishing you cand mend me
coz i'm the one that wounded

now i'm broken, i'm wounded
and waiting for you to come and fix me
but where were you now?
when everything is crashing down

time's passing out
on this loneliness i'm waiting for you
i'm here to see you smile
and standing here to hear you sing

i'm waiting for you here
till that day comes
that day you come and found me
fix me, mend me, and let me love you

fix me, i'm broken
Jumat, 2009 Februari 06

dreamer

2009-04-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

mood : proud
background : when you dream what will you be in future
message : "not afraid of dreaming, ready to realize."
quote : “Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true” - Lyman Frank Baum

DREAMER

when we were young, we didn't know what we're going to be
life taught us honor and respect
and i was taught, that all the achievements you've done in your life
can't be compared to the desire of your heart

are we dream about that day?
that day we can reap what we sow
we try to chase our dream
and realize that we're not too little to dream big

we dreamed about a day
a day to shine, and proofed to the world
proofed to myself
what we are now

i'm a dreamer
a dreamchaser
a risktaker
a real big deal

we risked everything
put our body on the line
dedicates our life
sweated, bled, cried, healed

now, we're all grown up
we'll take all the chances, risk everything we've got
then our shoulders can hold my duty
but our hearts holds our pride

dreamer
Kamis, 2009 Februari 05

take what's mine

2009-04-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

mood : spirited
background : when you try to retrieve your love
message : "never surrender defending your love."
quote : “Always, in every prayer of mine for you, all making request with joy." - Philippians 1:4

TAKE WHAT'S MINE

when my eyes filled by tears
and my world filled with fears
the only thing i can do is sit right here
wishing you were here

been in this situation so many times
left alone in this miserable world
if only you can hear my sound
coz you're the only one that really knows

i know what direction i will take next
but don't know know when to stop
coz i know what i am
but my time is running out

i'm just another broken lonely human
waiting for some hopes to saved my soul
but left neglected, no one could hear
still wishing you were here

coz you're all what i want
she's all what i ask
i know what risk i will take and what consequences i will face
i'll crawl and take what's mine

take what's mine
Rabu, 2009 Februari 04

speechless

2009-04-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

mood : kinda ashamed
background : when you're speechless in front of your loved one
message : "silent is not always good."
quote : “Silence is the virtue of fools.” - Francis Bacon, Sr.

SPEECHLESS

there are no words
i could ever say to you
even when my mouth's ready to talk
my heart won't let it out

my voice is gone and i cannot speak
even to whisper, trying to creep
i try to breathe and let it go out
but only air hisses out, no words coming out

it's too difficult to understand
i'm silent, for i who won't speak
so many fears, so many excuses
no words to express it

you leave me speechless
breathless
i can't talk around you
i can't laugh around you

i'm too speechless to find words
too coward to greet you
can't get my head around you
can't be closer to your heart

now i'm hopeless
o, girl
all your kindness to me
just making me more speechless

speechless
Selasa, 2009 Februari 03

choice

2009-04-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

mood : sunny
background : when you should make a choice about your life
message : "choose wisely, don't lose patient."
quote : “While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions.” - Stephen R. Covey

CHOICE

everybody has a choice
choice to be glad, or choice to be sad
choice to be great, or to be bad
choice to loving or to be loved

time has passed away, come a new one
there's many choice we've made before
some is to be proud of
but some is to be ashamed of

i've made a choice, choice to loving
a choice that maybe causes me many troubles
choice that make me weak and feels like a crybaby
but not a choice to be regretted of

if you heard this poem my love
maybe a lifetime doesn't enough to express my feels
neither a thousand book to write about you
like my little heart can't hold my feels for you

if you look at this poem my angel
definitely not the best poem ever written
but holds a thousand words, that can't be told
from the bottom of my heart to the edge of your eyes

i wish i'll never change
i wish you'll never change
because everybody will change
everything change in a heartbeat

buildings burn, life passed
children grow, tears fall
everything will change
but real love last forever

choice
Selasa, 2009 Februari 03

first announcement

2009-04-18T06:07:00.000-07:00

greetings, this is my second blog about poem...
starting today, my blog will be full by many poems of my life...
all this poem is handmade, no copyright piracy...
enjoy all this poems, please give your comment...
thanks...

Lieschen Müller (anonym)